Welcome to my new blog! I know, I know--everyone has a blog. I don't care if I have one follower or a million. I really just want to get things off my chest with the occasional sympathizer telling me everything will be OK.
For those of you who don't know me, I am a control-freak to an unhealthy degree. I am bossy and I love lists, and I do not like change or spontaneity. Yet, the decisions I have made in my life are all steeped in uncertainty and chaos. For instance, I am married to a used car salesman. When we met in college, he supported himself by selling car parts on eBay and scrapping metal. He told me he would own his own car dealership one day and, by the grace of God, I believed him. That is exactly what he does-- he owns a dealership and is pretty successful. And as a person, he is incredibly spontaneous and can be severely disorganized--traits that drive me nuts! Yet, they are surprisingly attractive qualities. We also have 5 kids, ages 5 to 2nd trimester. That in itself should tell you that I have very little sanity left. I am an ER nurse--perhaps the most unpredictable of all nursing jobs. Even though I hate uncertainty, I seem to be drawn to it like a sky diver loves danger. I thrive and go mad in these very situations. I cannot explain why, because I am certainly a planner and perhaps a little OCD. The only reason that I think I am pulled to this madness is that God must be saving me from myself--adding a little ying to the yang and making me give up control to follow Him. I am overwhelmed while simultaneously in love with my life.
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